This blog is not intended for you to feel sorry for me, but to give you an idea of my dating adventures, or lack there of. And plus, I have not written a blog on dating. Some of these stories looking back on them are silly in how they turned out, but it also gives me hope that there is some else better out there than the ones I am going to mention in this story. I am not going to mention any names in this story because some people might get mad at me, mainly the ones I have attempted to date. But then again, I could care less.
Girl 1: I knew that my dating life was going to be an adventure in 1st grade. I never caused any problems in school, but one day I got bored, and it was near the end of school for the year. So, I was looking for summer love and wanting to experiment with the "kiss". Good idea, so I thought. I got the courage to go over to this girl's desk, and lay a big smooch on the cheek. That was the best part of the whole experience. The next thing I did not see coming. I felt this hand come across my face. It was the slap that could be heard and felt throughout Flintville Elementary School. Everyone looked at me in a new light, though. I was the big man on campus, in such a small grade.
Girl 2: I had thought that I had found the girl of my dreams in 3rd grade. 2nd grade was all about building my reputation. In third grade I had finally found the one who was going to be my relationship for the year. We would sit on the bus with each other and talk. Our relationship was really becoming something. Needless to say, after about two or three weeks, or maybe four, we decided to call it quits. I do not remember being hurt, or showing any emotions, I just lived my normal life.
Girl 3: After my experience in 3rd grade, I never really pursued anything. Of course, I tried to ask out every girl, and sometimes I got to setup to ask girls out who did not show any interest in me, but I did not care. There was always this one girl that I had a crush, but after about three or four times of trying to be girlfriend and boyfriend, I had to come to the realization that I had to stop asking. After this trying of improving my dating life, I backed off the whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing till I was in high school. I never found anyone I liked, or shown interest in because everyone the girls seemed fake. It seemed the same way when I was in high school, as well. There was this one girl I had a a crush on in my youth group, but she ended up marrying one of friends. What a bomber!
Girl 4: This happened when I was a sophomore in college, at MTSU. I did a lot of things wrong in this relationship. Nothing impure, I did not get to know her. At first I thought that relationships were all about holding hands and that what love was. Also, she did somethings wrong in this relationship. From what I found out she put everything on a time limit. I know that it takes time to build a relationship, but it just seemed that this was taking it too far. After a couple of months of the awkwardness, we finally became good friends, and we have been friends ever since then. I just have this feeling her mother does not like me because she treats me like crap every time I am in Tennessee.
Girl 5: This happened my 3rd your at MTSU, and I was still young in my dating life. This is were things began to get a little out of hand. My roommate at the time started dating a girl, and so he thought that I should date this girl's roommate. So, I met this girl, and I thought that she was the one. We started going on dates, and it went from there. My roommate began to do somethings that he should not have done, and I was afraid that I was going to be in same boat he was in, and it was headed that way. After about a month of dating, and other things, I called it off. I know that she was hurt, but I had to do it. People asked me why I broke up with her, and they told me I made a dumb decision, but looking back on it, it was one of the best decisions I ever made.
Girl 6: This is probably the most frustrating one of them all. The people that I dated in college was mainly because I felt pressured to date. I never really thought that the relationships I was in would grow into something because to be honest, I did not give it a chance to. I had known this girl ever since she started working with a youth group in Murfreesboro. I was a youth volunteer there at the church, I never really wanted to pursue more than what was there. I thought of her as a co-worker and friend. After about a year of knowing each other and hanging out, I decided to get up the courage to ask her out on date. I did not tell anyone I was going to do it. When I finally decided I was going to ask her, she was not at church on that night, so I had to wait another week, before I could get up the courage to ask her, again. So, the time finally came, and I did it. I planned to ask her face-to-face because I did not want this be like some relationships. I got her alone, and I told her that what she was doing was making a difference in the lives of these teens. I told her that she was good at what she did. Nothing too deep. I just wanted to get to know her. She said yes, and I was on cloud nine, or so I thought. This is were the whole title for this blog comes true. I asked this girl out on a Wednesday, and in two days everything changed. I got her cell phone number, and I called her before we were supposed to go out just to make sure everything was good to go. Then her story started to change. She said instead of dinner, why don't we go get some coffee after church, Sunday night, then that changed too. I did not even like coffee, I just wanted to go with her. There was also something else she suggested, but I just decided to call it off because I could tell were this was headed. I ask her why she did give us a chance to get to know each other. Did some one say something to her. What happened in two days that made such a difference. I have yet to figure this out because I am still confused by this one. Yes, we are good friends and she has said somethings that have made me think there is a chance that could still date, but I am not going to take a chance if I am going to get treated like this. I do not look back on this because I do not think anything wrong. It seemed like she did not give it chance. Why is that? This is something has plagued my dating life. Take a chance...take a chance!
Montgomery: It was never my intention to found love down here because I always thought I was going back to Tennessee. But that did not stop me from trying. I have been on a couple of dates, and I finally understood the whole thing about dating. I understood that it is about getting to know someone. Nothing more, nothing less. I have had fun going on the dates, and I thought that they could lead to something, but nothing. I am always left to wonder what I did wrong. It seems that these girls did not want to take a chance to get to know me. Why? I have not received any answers, or good excuses. I am beginning to think if I go back home to Tennessee, I can find someone.
I know that there some girls/women that I have left out. I guess they got lucky, or I could not remember them, and that is about it. I know that God has someone out there for me. It just gets frustrating when things do not work out for the best. When I think I found someone, something happens. Could this be a reason why I am going to move back to Tennessee. Finding someone is not going to going fill a void in my life. I want to share my life with someone. I want to found someone God has put on this Earth to make a difference in my life, and me in theirs. I want to find someone who will be my best friend, and the love of my life. God has put that someone out there. Could they be back in Tennessee. I have yet to find the answers to that one, too.
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